There Came a Time

There came a time when I needed a mother, when that’s what I wanted most and yet I couldn’t have.

There came a time when I needed comfort and care, so I started by admitting that I felt abandoned. There came a time when I needed support, so I started by confessing that I felt so very alone. There came a time when I needed to be shaken awake, so I began by asking why I always ran away.

There came a time when I needed nurturing, so I learned to take my inner child by the hand and sing my self-doubt to sleep. There came a time when I needed refining, so I allowed myself to break and then carefully cradled the bruised parts of my soul.

There came a time when I needed a mother, so that’s what I became.

There came a time when I needed true compassion, when I found myself looking out at a world that seemed too cold.

There came a time when I felt misunderstood, so I started by admitting that I’d blocked others out. There came a time when I was harshly judged, so I began by confessing that I was a critic myself.

There came a time when I needed someone to see me for who I really was, so I started by trying to see the world that way. There came a time when I needed forgiveness, so I started by forgiving myself. There came a time when I needed love, so I started accepting my imperfections and fell in love with my darkest parts.

There came a time when I needed true compassion, so that’s what I became.

There came a time when I needed a teacher that I could trust, when I felt misled by those whom I had entrusted the lead.

There came a time when I needed insight, so I started by taking a good look at myself. There came a time when I needed direction, so I began by admitting I wasn’t sure where to start.

There came a time when I needed a higher perspective, so I started by looking up from the pages of my books. There came a time when I didn’t know who to trust, so I began by learning to follow the song of my soul.

There came a time when I needed a teacher, so that’s what I became.

There came a time when I needed healing, when I needed love, when I needed truth, when I needed life, when I needed clarity, when I needed light, so that’s what I became.

There came a time when I needed myself so, at long last, that’s what I became.

© 2019 Cristen Rodgers

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Cristen Rodgers

I'm just a woman who is helplessly in love with words and passionate about spiritual development. Spiritual author, blogger, and essayist at Journeys in Spirit

12 thoughts on “There Came a Time

  1. Thank you for sharing!.. 🙂
    “I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together”… Marilyn Monroe

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